Category: My God Blessings

Sometimes dealing with the pain is the only option you have and that pain  is only there to test your strengths and to see just how long you can hold on and more importantly your will to survive.  It has been almost three years since my faithful car accident and one that I will never forget.  The pain that I incurred was a true testament to see just how strong I could be and with so many who love and care for me including my family and my best friend KP all helped give me strengths in ways I could never think possible and my will to survive was worth all the pain in the world.  I love my life more than you would ever know and every single day has been a blessing to me all the laughs all the tears all the love and all the care I get from so many everyday gives me a will to survive no matter how much pain because no amount of pain is worth giving up on when you have so many who love you and care for you and their strength is what all makes it all possible and without them I don’t know what I would do and all the pain I fought was all for them so that they would not loose someone that they care so deeply for and to prove how much they all mean to me is worth all the pain in the world.  I am a true fighter and every day on earth is the biggest blessing of them all and I don’t regret any of the pain and any of the suffering because I have so many in my life who love me and my life is worth it all because my life is everything to me and if I had to do it all over again to just to be here for the ones I love I would fight it all over again even if the pain is harder to deal with.


Summer has been ok mainly working right now just trying to make it by each day as best I can and I put a big smile on my face everyday and stay only as positive as I can.  I have lots of friends who I miss so much that I just want to pick them from my dreams and hug them.  Summer time itself seems to be going by so fast which does make me so sad and I wish only time could slow down.  At least I have a few true friends out in this crazy world I truly don’t know what to do without them they give me a reason to live everyday and I will always be here for them no matter the distance between us because they are a true God’s blessing to me and I don’t know what I would ever do without them.

Someone from above

Someone was deff watching over me today and I couldn’t be more happy to be alive as I do today.

I could never express how truly blessed I feel just to be alive today and I have some extremely wonderful friends in this world that I wouldn’t trade for anything.  Life has truly been the greatest thing to ever happen to me and for allowing so many to be apart of it just means everything to me and not a day goes by that I won’t be there for them.  Kendall K, David R, Lauren R, Lindsey T, Jessica F, and of course all my boys are all the best and there is not a thing in the world I wouldn’t do for them.

Today I woke up and feeling nothing but purely blessed everything.  Sometimes when I think back to the memories I have with friends family and so many others and just to realize how truly loved that I am and how important I am to so many and it just makes me cry thinking about it sometimes and I truly don’t know what I would ever do without all the strength I get from everyone around me.  Life may not always go according to plans or go the way you had originally hoped for, but in the end I am so glad to still be alive and of course the love and care I get not just from my best friend, but from all my friends family and loved ones and without them I don’t know were I would be.

My Universe

My universe is a very special place and god has truly blessed me with the best friends that I could have ever asked for and I love each and every one of them with all my heart and I would not hesitate to risk my life for them or even die for them because without them I don’t what I would ever do with myself. They mean everything to me and I pray for each and every one of them every day and every night and there is nothing in this world that I would not do for them. Love is a strong word and I’m never afraid to use it to tell them how much I love and care for them and because of them I have something in this world to live for and I have to protect myself for the ones who love me because they would do anything to protect me and it makes me cry so hard to know how much I truly mean to all of them and especially the things they would do to protect my life. God I love them with all my heart.

Family isn’t always blood.
It’s the people in your life
who want you in theirs;
the ones who accept you
for who you are, The ones
who would do anything to
see you smile and who
love you no matter what.

Stafford.On a Wing and a Prayer

I have been praying with all my heart for my beloved Lauren Ruiz for over a year now and everyday since the day the two of us met have been the best days of my life and I thank God for her every single day and things really seem to be looking up for her and she seems to be a very happy person right now and that means a lot to me and I only have God to thank for that and I will continue to pray for her and continue to give her lots of love from every inch of my heart.  My heart has also been very close to one of my best friends Lindsey Tingler as her Grandfather has recently past away and this news has completely broken my heart in ways you could never imagine and I will always be there for her and her family. Thank you Lord for blessing me with Lauren and Lindsey they both mean the world to me and there is nothing in this world that I would not do for them, they are the best friends I could have ever asked for ♥

Its Easter and I am not feeling so great today as this time of year the pollen comes out and messes with me and makes me cough lungs inside out and I have just been at home resting it up today trying to stay strong and positive and of all other things just to continue to be happy which is something I could not say about one of my best est friends Lauren R.  Today has not been so happy for her and today while sitting at home the time I have not been spending sleeping away I have been up praying for her and letting the good lord know just how important she has truly been to me these past couple of years I have been so blessed to have shared my life with and I can understand to a point where the pain never seems to completely go away, but no the less I will stay strong and be as positive as I can be not just for me, but for her and everyone around me.  I only have a few friends in this world who truly mean the world to me other than my own family and Lauren is one of them and she will always be family to me.

Dear father today I pray in the name of Jesus Christ and ask for your continued love and your continued protection  for not only me, but for my friends family and most importantly my beloved Lauren who I love and care for more than she would ever know and your many thanks for blessing me anther day on earth and for all my friends family and loved ones especially my sweet Lauren because I could never imagine my life without her and my life would never be as bright and beautiful as its been for me without her – Amen

When someone you truly care for is going through more than you could even know it breaks your heart just to know the pain they feel is something you could never imagine and you would do anything in the world to make them feel better even if just for a moment would mean the world to me.  I have a very special friend who crossed my path a couple of years ago at a random party and I have god to thank for that special moment and for her every day and I never thought a couple of years later that she would mean the world to me and I never thought I would be where I am today because of her big heart and sweet soul and it only breaks my heart and makes me cry just to know everything she has been through these past couple of years and every day you just keep on praying your heart out for her hoping things will get better, but then as things look up something else happens to her and all the extra pain keeps on adding up and I only ask god to continue to watch over her and help her stay strong.  I know she has not been able to sleep at all without her mind flashing in different directions and I wish I knew what that was like just so I could know exactly what she has been going through and more importantly so I better know what I can do to just help make her feel better and to just let her know how no matter what may happen that I will always love and care for her just the way she is and that having a friend like her is like the next best thing to just being alive and there is nothing in this world that I would not do for her.  It has been over a year since we have seen each other as we both live so far apart and after these next couple of weeks go by I am going to try and make plans to come see her and make sure we never go this long without seeing each other ever again because this girl needs a friend like me more than anyone right now and I will continue to pray for her and just thank the good lord for blessing her and for putting this amazing girl in my life to love and care for its means a lot to me and she will always have that most special place in my heart and that is something I will never regret saying and I am proud to say she is one of my best friends I have ever had.  If you have someone you love with all your heart don’t be afraid to tell them because friendship is one soul that shares two bodies and I love Lauren R all the way to the moon and back ♥