for some time now my life has had some major drawbacks and my lifestyle has also changed as well.  It has been a rough few years between not being able to see my best friend in over 3 years to my local repair shop which was my life dream after High School not fair so well and this past year has been the hardest year of my life not knowing were my future holds for me and watching my business die out almost completely has really taken its toll on me.  I have been all over the Job market with no success finding a permanent job as of yet while in the process landing a part time job at a local supermarket which does not pay much but for now providing a paycheck for something every two weeks while I search for full time work trying at least in the computer industry but willing to try anything new.  It has saddened me to say that I have to close my repair shop were I started after High School which is so heartbreaking to see it did not make it.  My best friend ever since High School always supported my me and my business even before we both graduated High School together back in 2008 and I ran into her the other day at the supermarket were I work currently and having to tell her my shop did not make it broke my heart and was not something I would have ever wanted her to hear but when I told her I would be fixing computers at home on the side she told me she would continue to send people my way which tells me over 10 years later that she still truly cares about me and my well-being which means everything to me and she truly is my every reason to live.  I have been through so much but her support has been one of the best gifts I could have ever received and she has no idea what she truly means to me in my heart even when life gets into the way and you don’t get to see each other often anymore like you used to your friendship never fades away and we always remain close in each others heart which is everything.  I have yet to not feel so depressed as I have been all summer and trying to be happy or even find happiness is nearly impossible anymore.  The best week I had all summer was when I volunteered at the iCanBike event to help children with disabilities learn how to ride a bike all because my best friends best friend got me involved and I could have never been more grateful for the opportunity and it put a smile on my face something that I needed. It has been very hard for me lately and I try everyday to stay positive and I don’t know were I would be without my family and my best friend who I would be completely lost without her.

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