Its lake October and I have lots on my mind between work and everything else it just seems that nothing ever seems to workout just the way I need them in order to survive.  I love my job and everything I do but when business dies out almost completely and your not sure when your next source of income is going to be I seem to loose faith in myself and the motivation to stay positive.  Seeing how other businesses around me all seem to be in the same boat as me it just makes me wonder where our world is truly headed for and that kinda scares me more than anyone would ever think.  I am at least thankful for my true friends and family who have always supported my decisions since day one and I don’t know what I would ever do without them, they are my world and my life and one of the biggest reasons for me to live everyday likes its my last they have all helped me in ways you could never imagine and there’s noting in this world that I would not do for them and I’v been keeping my good friend Lauren R. in my thoughts and prayers everyday especially these past couple of months as I know they have been really hard on her with work and her classes shes been taking.  She has done really well and I just pray for a miracle that she is given the strength to help her complete these classes and especially keeping her going strong at work and praying that shes able to get some decent night sleep which I would do anything to allow her to have that and be able to just sleep dreams it truly would mean the world to me God she has never done me wrong and been one of the best things to ever happen to me and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.