Waiting for something for any amount of time can be annoying or even just something that pumps you up with a smile knowing that the time will come and for whatever you are so happy for will most likely happen and the I can’t wait is all over your mind and its such a wonderful feeling knowing whats about to happen soon, but when you have something in your life that you want more than anything something that you know you want more than anything and knowing that deep inside you know that it will never happen in your lifetime.  The thought of setting around just waiting for something waiting for that day in your life that will never come is just a complete nightmare and like a bad dream that you can never wake up from.  You know that there is something else out there is this world that would fix the problems your heart feels everyday and despite what that is you know that it will never happen either and just waiting for something else to happen and another day to cure your blues and knowing that day is not coming for you either is now sounding more and more like a broken record that keeps skipping and every time the record spins around in the player you here the same thing over and over again exactly as you did before and the next part of that song that you are waiting for will never play and no matter how long you listen and wait you know that the thing you want to play will never play and you have to go your whole life going without the one thing your heart always wanted and knowing that just like the broken record being stuck is not even your fault but you still have to live everyday of your life in pain anyway and that really is the most unfair part of the whole thing and knowing you did not do anything wrong but still having to pay the consequences anyways.  You can learn to be strong and to keep your head up and even be so strong for everyone around you even during their worst times all while knowing your heart is burning deep down inside and the only one to feel your pain is yourself and I just wonder sometimes how I am still standing tall and strong as I am today just want it all to be a bad dream.