Archive for March, 2013


Its Easter and I am not feeling so great today as this time of year the pollen comes out and messes with me and makes me cough lungs inside out and I have just been at home resting it up today trying to stay strong and positive and of all other things just to continue to be happy which is something I could not say about one of my best est friends Lauren R.  Today has not been so happy for her and today while sitting at home the time I have not been spending sleeping away I have been up praying for her and letting the good lord know just how important she has truly been to me these past couple of years I have been so blessed to have shared my life with and I can understand to a point where the pain never seems to completely go away, but no the less I will stay strong and be as positive as I can be not just for me, but for her and everyone around me.  I only have a few friends in this world who truly mean the world to me other than my own family and Lauren is one of them and she will always be family to me.

Dear father today I pray in the name of Jesus Christ and ask for your continued love and your continued protection  for not only me, but for my friends family and most importantly my beloved Lauren who I love and care for more than she would ever know and your many thanks for blessing me anther day on earth and for all my friends family and loved ones especially my sweet Lauren because I could never imagine my life without her and my life would never be as bright and beautiful as its been for me without her – Amen

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When someone you truly care for is going through more than you could even know it breaks your heart just to know the pain they feel is something you could never imagine and you would do anything in the world to make them feel better even if just for a moment would mean the world to me.  I have a very special friend who crossed my path a couple of years ago at a random party and I have god to thank for that special moment and for her every day and I never thought a couple of years later that she would mean the world to me and I never thought I would be where I am today because of her big heart and sweet soul and it only breaks my heart and makes me cry just to know everything she has been through these past couple of years and every day you just keep on praying your heart out for her hoping things will get better, but then as things look up something else happens to her and all the extra pain keeps on adding up and I only ask god to continue to watch over her and help her stay strong.  I know she has not been able to sleep at all without her mind flashing in different directions and I wish I knew what that was like just so I could know exactly what she has been going through and more importantly so I better know what I can do to just help make her feel better and to just let her know how no matter what may happen that I will always love and care for her just the way she is and that having a friend like her is like the next best thing to just being alive and there is nothing in this world that I would not do for her.  It has been over a year since we have seen each other as we both live so far apart and after these next couple of weeks go by I am going to try and make plans to come see her and make sure we never go this long without seeing each other ever again because this girl needs a friend like me more than anyone right now and I will continue to pray for her and just thank the good lord for blessing her and for putting this amazing girl in my life to love and care for its means a lot to me and she will always have that most special place in my heart and that is something I will never regret saying and I am proud to say she is one of my best friends I have ever had.  If you have someone you love with all your heart don’t be afraid to tell them because friendship is one soul that shares two bodies and I love Lauren R all the way to the moon and back ♥

Tears are the words that the heart can’t say and lately my heart has been crying lots of them.  Lots of things have been going on in my life and I have been very emotional person lately and adding on the fact that someone you love and care so much for has been going through so many things you could never imagine and despite all the love and prayers you give out I just wish sometimes I could tell her how truly blessed I am to have her in my beautiful life and how no matter what happens that there’s nothing in this world I would not do for her.  After loosing one of my good friends a few weeks ago things just don’t seem to the same to me anymore and so many of my loved ones have felt the same way.  Today my prayers are gonna still be strong for my beloved Lauren R and just keeping her close to my heart and really just asking god for her continued protection love and strength and just to help her sleep better at night because not one night has gone by that I’m not thinking about her and praying that she gets a good full nights sleep.   Thank you god for all who you have blessed me with today and everyday and may your love and protection always be there for the ones I love with all my heart including my best friend Kendall and my beloved Lauren they both mean the world to me ♥

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Life is truly a beautiful thing to have and there is nothing in this world I would ever trade it for. I have some of the most amazing people in my life and I am so truly thankful for each and everyone of them and my life has truly been more beautiful and brighter with you all here in it with me and there’s nothing in this world I would not do for you.

Tonight I will pray, but more importantly my heart my love and prayers are gonna be most heavy on my sweet Lauren Ruiz.  Lauren’s one of my few best friends in the world and god I know she has been so many different things in the short time that we have known each other and it’s just not fair.  I love this girl more than you would ever know and the friendship we have shared has always meant the world to me and there is nothing I would not do for her so I pray tonight with all my heart for Lauren and for putting this amazing girl in my life.  I ask only for a miracle tonight that you do all in your power to help keep her going strong, I know things seem to be tough on her and I could only imagine what she has been going through her head and I always fear the worst.  This girl is like family to me and I just pray that you continue to keep safe and keep her going strong she is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me and I would do anything to keep a smile on that beautiful face of hers – Amen

Life may have its ups and downs and mine is no exception always having lots of stress and things constantly running through my head all the time and although I live my life as happy and as positive as possible my few friends who I have absolutely mean the world to me and because of them life is diffidently more beautiful more colorful and much more brighter than I could have ever imagined and I never thought I would be where I am today because of you guys and I have the good lord to thank for you all everyday. The love and care I get form everyone has been something I am so truly blessed to always have in my life and you all give me a reason to live everyday.

I love you Ashley A, Kendall K, Lauren R, Lindsey T, Meaghan N, Abby B, Mary R, David R, Jeremy C, Brittany B, Jessica F, Kelly V, Kaytee B, Joe A, Jessica G, and Elizabeth F

You all mean the world to me and you will always have that special place in my heart and life as I know it is more beautiful with you in it and there is nothing in this world that I would not do for you and without each and everyone of you I don’t know what I would ever do with myself ♥

Today I was going to the local shamrock the block which is held once a year for st. Patrick’s Day to celebrate a birthday for one of my best friends in the whole world Lauren Ruiz.  I love this girl more than you would ever know and we where both looking forward to seeing each other today.  She told me on the phone she would be in around 1 today and shortly after I parked my car she told me she was almost there too.  I waited in front of the main entrance for a bit of time and then decided to call her, but somehow all the phones stopped working and I was told by many people that they were blocking the towers from us so now I could not get in touch with Lauren as my phone would not send text messages either.  I spend all 6 hours walking and looking for her, but I could not find her then I found lots of my other friends who happen to be there tell me Lauren was looking for me as well.  I did not get to see her all day and I feel like if I had a better plan before hand and telling her to meet me at a certain spot when I got there with great detail.  I should have not relayed on having a cellphone especially knowing Lauren’s phone always seems to have issues in the first place.  Lauren is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me and despite what happened today it is all behind me and I will always love and care for this girl no matter what tries to get in the way.  I am just so happy to have her in my life and there is nothing in this world I would not do for her and I just feel so bad that because our phones did not work and I did not come up with a better game plan before I left my house this morning I am sure that broke Lauren’s heart and that’s not fair especially after some of the things I know she has always been going through and I would do anything to keep a smile on that beautiful face of hers because shes worth all the trouble in the world and after what happened today I am gonna make it all up to her anyway I can ♥

Lauren Ruiz has been one of my best friends I have ever had and she means the world to me. We live so far apart and never get to see each other but I still pray for her everyday and I could never imagine life without her. Lauren Ruiz is a true gods blessing to me and I’m glad our paths crossed each others a couple of years ago. She has truly helped me in ways she could never imagine and she’s worth all the trouble in the world and I love her with all my heart ❤

I got a wake up call from one of my best friends in the whole world Ashley Austin and she was only letting me know that one of my good friends Critter had past away the night before and I was completely lost and had no idea what to say.  To this day to this moment I don’t know what in the world I could say to make everything better because nothing will ever bring him back to life and I could never imagine life without him and sometimes I feel like this is all some big bad dream that I am living in, but something keeps telling me its not a dream and its all for real.  Life is way too precious and not just for me, but for so many around me and especially after my birthday I realized how much everyone loves and cares for me and I would never do anything to put my life at risk and I promise that with all my heart because without them life would never be the same.  My love and prayers are going out to the Beasley Family and I want all my friends and loved ones to know that I am always here for them even if they just need a shoulder to cry on nothing is ever more important then to be here for the ones I love.