Life has not always gone in the directions that I would have hoped for lately and when things fall into place things go south a little bit for me.  Anyone who knows me knows how big my heart can be sometimes and how I try to do everything in my power to do the right thing and be here for the ones I love, but I have come to realize that with a big heart makes it very fragile and breaks more than I would expect.  Despite everything going on in my life right now I am just truly so grateful to just be alive and to just be here with the ones that I love with all my heart.  There is nothing I would ever want more in my life than to just be able to be here for the ones I love and care for them anyway I can.  Today I write all of this to say how much I love you and how much I truly appreciate everything you have done for me you are the best friends I could have ever asked for and every day when I pray to God for all of my life’s blessings I pray for each and every one of you.  I love you all more than anything in this world and I truly don’t know what I would ever do without you and if God knew how much I love and care for you he would be crying too.  I don’t know what direction my heart wants me to take or what my future has for me, but just knowing I have you in my life helps make everything better and for that I love you more than you would ever know.  Thank you for being there it means everything to me and I am always right here for you day/night for anything no matter what because I truly care about you and you mean the world to me and I don’t know what I would ever do without you.